I have been careless and unaware of the consequences of my behavior.
- At the age of 7 or 8, I hit my next door neighbor with a souvenir baseball bat while practicing a swing and left before I saw him get back up.
- Rather than seeking to amend the relationship, I obsessed on my Man from Uncle Briefcase, with built in Pea shooter, and tried to talk my mother into letting me get a Bowie Knife.
- The girl next door neighbor tried to talk me into relying on God, but I was more interested in finding a four leaf clover.
- And, when my mother found a new home for us, rather than being grateful for the new start, I focused my attention on how I would be able to best the new man in her life.
- When I realized I couldn't compete with the little guy because he was so strong, I blamed our culture for belittling him, instead of admitting the fact that I couldn't do anything about it.
And, though I've always believed in being good and doing right, I was not prepared to deal with evil or vengeance until I encountered it in my own life, and by then, I needed help.
- While I went to rescue my daughter, another child was destroyed in order to silence me, and prevent me from my opportunity.
- And, when I worked with others who were also seeking justice, and they died, I did not realize that they may have died because they were seeking justice too.
- And finally, while following instructions may not have worked for me when I was a child, as I grew up and continued to follow instructions, I realized I was learning my lessons from childhood.